Why would anyone read my pathetic rants?

Ya know I'm just wondering why I write this crap. Oh yeah it's cause I don't have any one to listen to me. Surely not my dear wife. It seems all I do for her is disappoint. OOOOO that sounds a bit ugly now , doesn't it. Well I feel pretty negative today. I guess I am not the person my wife of 28 years wants anymore. Same old story, I am who I am. Sorry! Well this goes on and on like this and it really gets me nowhere as usual. OK I just got to accept it for what it is, CRAP. So this is midlife and it can really suck sometimes. I'll stop now cause nobody including myself wants to here anymore. See Ya