Trying to get it right

Is there anything I am thinking or saying that's of any intrest to anyone. WellI guess it does to me and that's enough for me. I just write here in complete isolation, it's like being in a huge crowded room and being totally invisable. My life with my dear wife is always a struggle, she just does not trust me. I am doing everything we have agreed on except I haven't got a steady second job. This just bugs her no end. I can't find one. I don't want to do the contracting because it is too easy to lose money or waste a huge amount of time. I work over 42 regular weekday hours per week right here in town and I make good money about $70k per year. This just isn't enough for her she thinks I'm lazy or something. I am being honest with her and letting her see all my bills and accounts, still doesn't seem ok with her. I can't seem to get it right or make it right. What will it take? It is like banging my head on a brick wall. Nobody will se this or care about my situation. I am not and have not lived up to my potential and I know it is my choices that creates this life.



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