The Grind and I don't mean coffee

I know I'm sounding like a sniveling bitch. It just seems like the day to day crap I've got to put up with gets just damn oppressive. They are down my throat and up my ass. Boy does that sound sick or what. I know that it has been my choice to end up where I'm at by all of my past decisions. What a shit hole it is sometimes. Can't take any of it back. Grind me into the ground why don't you.

I am a Dead Head

I'm trying to post images so we will see. Maybe.

Here We Go Again

Well sometimes things happen and we just have to go with it, like it or not. There are big changes at my regular day job and it makes me feel a bit insecure. Is that the story of my life or what? Anyway I'm kind of looking at it a little different this go round as an opportunity rather than a problem. It's not like my job is going away or something it is just changing into something that's not very rewarding. So what to do? Go with it, fight it, worry about it or what, I'm just not sure but I'm not going to let it eat me up. I am surely not a kid anymore and career opportunities are a little different then when I was younger. What I am not going to do is get into a funk and act like something is terribly wrong. What is suppose to happen will happen all I need to do is keep my heart and mind open and act on my gut instincts. That's where I'm at, it actually is kind of exciting and a bit welcome. Stir it up a little and lite a fire under my ass. Every so often in life I seem to need a push to get on to the next level, well here we go again.

I HATE this part

I just had to fire a guy at work for M.C.E. I like this guy and it didn't have to happen. He hurt his knee at work and went in to the companies Dr. the first thing they do is ask for a piss test, he refuses. Bad enough right, then I talk to him and got him to go back this morning after explaining what had to happen if he didn't. Again he said he couldn't pe with some one right there. So what to do? I am forced to follow company policy. See Ya. This is a hard lesson and it didn't have to go this way. I HATE having to do this and be the companies tool to enforce this.

Not Much of a Blogger

Well it's been a while, hasn't it. Like I said not much of a blogger I guess. I want to open up and discuss my thoughts but I hold back, don't know why. This whole part of life is confusing and difficult. I don't want to sound like a whiny little bitch though it sure seems that way sometimes. The wife and I are working on our problems very hard. I was renting a room for a couple of months and we were both just kind of thinking about what we really wanted out of the next part of life and what was really important to each of us. Long sentence wasn't it. We are back under the same roof and doing counseling and group meetings and church. Mondays, Tuesdays, Fridays and Sundays in the evenings. It is a lot to deal with and try and make a living. Both our jobs and my business eat up so much time it is just crazy at times. Well is that enough whining and bitching for today? Vent, vent, vent.