What Do I Really Want To Do?

This is like THE question, isn't it, does anybody know their answer? I sometimes don't even know what I want to do one moment to the next, let alone into the distant future. I sense that most other people are kind of the same and if I am wrong I would sure like to pick their brains. Maybe there is some guidance I could glean from them or some nugget of real truth. I don't know yet it is always on my mind, what to do, what do I want? The old tried and true stock answers come to mind and just seem so superficial and boring. I am thinking that I need a complete paradigm shift a whole different way of seeing life that is it's own reward. I am just so tired of the same never ending race to hold on to the material things you have at the cost of giving up your limited time and energy, not to mention your soul. I miss myself, he is in reality a stranger and a mystery to me some one I long ago lost touch with. Is there an answer? I just don't know. I keep searching inside my own head and heart in hopes of meeting back up with that long lost friend that is me.

No No No vember

Yeah here it is the holiday rush and birthdays and Cathy's wedding and more and more $$$ going out, have it or not. Mary's car heater is leaking and more and more stress at home and at work. I just love this life I get so much out of it. I have exactly zero time to be myself or even explore what I am going to do in to the future. That's right I'm bitching like an old woman again
and I don't really give a shit.