Unforfilled Potential

Well it's a new year and things are the same. I am obviously not the man my wife had hoped I'd be. Hey I can only be me. I have made mistakes and some bad choices but I have always worked and always been faithful. I am looking at my family legacy and all I can see is unforfilled potential, my father, my brother, myself. This isn't what I want to pass on to my sons and daughter. I feel increasingly trapped in a financial and commercial spiral of consumerism. I don't want this stuff, I want peace and to do something of worth. I am pushed to make more money and support a lifestyle that is hollow and can never be enough. I just know there is something in me that can be great and help people and create a family legacy that will be positive. I just hate how the same old negative thoughts come into my head everytime things get stressful. Mary has decided long ago that to put me down and berate me is how she will relate to me. I don't know that anything I do will change this. I will push on and hope and pray for what's right to happen will happen. God give me strength and guidence to do what's right.

See Ya Dave